As many of you know, for 10 years I took care of my late paternal grandmother. When she died in August 2014, I thought my caregiving days were over. I struggled for two years after that to find a reason to live for I believed being her caregiver was my sole destiny. It took my final suicide attempt two years ago for me to see that God had more in store for me.
It’s been almost a month now and I’ve found my life coming full circle. In another physical capacity, I’ve become a caregiver once more. This time around it happens to be my maternal grandmother. At first I thought, with all of my ailments, carpel tunnel and tendinitis of my right hand and wrist, I wouldn’t be able to be an effective caregiver as I once was. Yet, praise God for His strength, grace and mercy truly endures forever as it gets me through each and every day.
Before my grandmother went into the hospital to have surgery, I prayed over her body and remained in constant prayer privately. During my daily prayer time, I would ask God for the strength I needed to get the job done once more. As my grandmother can attest, some days my hand swells so big I can hardly stand the pain. Yet each day, by His grace, I’m given the strength I need to carry on.
Needless to say that with everything that’s going on, it’s been kinda hard to focus on writing. Each time I’ve sat down to write, I’d either be in too much pain to write, too tired to type or the words just won’t come out right. I now understand that this is God’s way of preserving my strength for it’s currently needed elsewhere.
I thought that this break from writing would take away too much time from the scheduled deadlines I set for myself in order to complete my first book. Yet now, as I spend this daily morning prayer time with God, I am reminded that the great work that He’s begun in me will come into fruition in due time for He’s faithful to perform it. What I can’t get done in the natural, God has already clocked in and is working overtime in the supernatural to shift things in my favor. While it’s our job to plant the seed (dream) He gives us in the ground, it’s God’s job to send the rain to come and water the seed to help it grow.
I’ve shared this scripture plaque many times before on my blog. This painting hangs above my bedroom door to remind me of who is in control of my life. I’m just the messenger, but God is the author. While I may look at time a certain way, God sees things differently.
“For we live by believing and not by seeing.” (2 Corinthians 5:7 NLT)
I embody this scripture wholeheartedly. When I could not see a way out of the darkness of grief and despair that I was in after my paternal grandmother died, God saw my breakthrough coming a mile away. He knew that there would come a day and time when I’d no longer see darkness and all I’d see was His light. This is so true for now my days are filled with joy and I have a renewed sense of purpose and peace.
I enjoy being a caregiver! However, I now understand that caregiving is not just a physical thing. Being a caregiver is a form of love and there are many ways to be a caregiver. While my life has been a revolving door of being a physical caregiver (my late great-grandmother nana, my late paternal grandmother and now my maternal grandmother), I’m starting to learn and understand my position as being a spiritual caregiver. Thank you God for this revelation! Being a spiritual caregiver, sharing my life’s journey and story with others brings me just as much joy as it does being a physical caregiver. Though some days I may feel drained and exhausted, I know that through God’s help, the strength of the Holy Spirit and with Christ at the helm, I have the tools that I need to persevere. I wouldn’t trade being who I am for the world!
“Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.” (James 1:27 NLT)
I know my place and I understand that this world needs more kind, passionate caregivers. If I can add a little piece of happiness, joy, love, encouragement, enlightenment and care to the cause of God’s Kingdom, I’m glad to step up to the plate and lend a helping hand. We all have a part to play in this world. I’ve been called to teach the gospels (the Good News of Jesus Christ) and my way of doing that is by the love I give and by sharing my personal story with anyone who will listen or take the time to read it. God has done some amazing things in my life and with Christ I now have the peace, joy and courage to share my story.
“Yet preaching the Good News is not something I can boast about. I am compelled by God to do it. How terrible for me if I didn’t preach the Good News!”
(1 Corinthians 9:16 NLT)
What about you? Do you know what your purpose is in life? Have you fully embraced that dream that God is calling you to fulfill?
Today, I pray that you seek God first, asking Him of your mission or purpose in life. May you allow Him to give you the wisdom you need to embrace your part in this world. I pray that once you find your calling, you zone into your destiny wholeheartedly, running steadily towards that goal mark. I pray that even in the face of adversity, you never give up hope! May you always know who you can turn to and who your strength comes from. This I pray over you and your dream’s sake, in Jesus’ Holy name, Amen! Go in peace and as always, be encouraged.
Sincerely with love,
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