Just as the scripture reads in Psalms 119:10 NLT, ““I have tried hard to find you— don’t let me wander from your commands,” I too have tried so hard to find you. With asking to be kept from wandering away from your wonderful shield of protection and love, I know I must first come to you sincere, with an open mind, heart and willing spirit. I take this time, this day, this second of this hour to humbly admit my sins and decisions I’ve made that have gone against your commands.
I’ve made some poor choices, especially in men, and for that I apologize. I apologize for my sins and for falling victim to the temptations of the Evil one. I knew your commands, yet I did not listen. I knew what you said was right, yet I openly chose to do wrong. Your word says in 1 Corinthians 13:4-5 NLT, “Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.” I read these words several times a day, yet I did not take heed to them.
Many times, I’ve chosen to try to find love for myself instead of allowing your love to be enough. I’ve allowed the flashiness of the words and things of foolish men to cloud my judgement. I desire love so much that I neglect to remove the rose colored glasses from my eyes. In doing so, I’ve allowed myself to fall for the charm and deceit of tempting men.
You’ve provided me with such words of wisdom, yet I made the decision to choose to ignore them. For that, I humbly bear the consequences of my actions. Your word says in Matthew 18:7 NLT, ““What sorrow awaits the world, because it tempts people to sin. Temptations are inevitable, but what sorrow awaits the person who does the tempting.”
So I come to you now to lay my burden of guilt at your feet. I’m sorry for my sins and pray that anyone I may have lead into sin be forgiven of theirs. I recognize that I haven’t always been the one to draw first blood, but I take full responsibility in my reaction to falling to its prey. I know your will is good, what you say is law; however, many times I get weak. As you already know (because you designed me), I wear my heart on my sleeve. As a a result of this, I am easily taken advantage of.
When overtaken by my weaknesses, instead of turning to you for my strength, I choose to fight my own battles. Each time, I lose. “You say, “Food was made for the stomach, and the stomach for food.” (This is true, though someday God will do away with both of them.) But you can’t say that our bodies were made for sexual immorality. They were made for the Lord, and the Lord cares about our bodies.”1 Corinthians 6:13 NLT
I admit I struggle to please you Lord. I admit my flesh becomes weak when faced with the temptation of lust and sex. Scripture reads in 1 Corinthians 6:18 NLT that I should, “Run from sexual sin! No other sin so clearly affects the body as this one does. For sexual immorality is a sin against your own body.” Yet I admit, that at times, I choose to satisfy my own cravings instead of focusing on you.
In John 8:34 NLT, “Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave of sin.” Just as there are stages in addiction, I know that I too must go through the stages of sin-addiction. So I admit my slavery and pray for the strength to overcome it. I realize in Mark 9:49 NLT that Jesus stated, ““For everyone will be tested with fire,” yet I admit that I don’t always turn to you to help me put out the flames.
Lord, even though I study your word everyday, I don’t always choose to follow your words. At times, I put my own needs before your desires and for that, I am sorry.
Your word is good, this I know. So why do I choose to disobey your commands? It’s because I fall victim to my own pompous thinking that I know what I need and what’s best for my life. I admit my faults and wrongs in my thinking. I am merely human, who was made in the image of you; although sometimes, I tend to forget the most important fact that I was created BY YOU.
Again, I ask that you forgive my selfish desires and thoughts. In Luke 6:47 NLT, Jesus says, “I will show you what it’s like when someone comes to me, listens to my teaching, and then follows it.” So dear God, I pray that you continue to teach me your ways. I want to learn how to be better. I want to follow you, not my sin. Thank you for allowing your son to come here on Earth, teach me how to pray and for stretching his arms and dying for my sins. May my sins be forgiven.
Lastly Holy Father, I want to end with this simple prayer found in Matthew 6:9-13 NLT where your son Jesus Christ instructs us to, “Pray like this: Our Father in heaven, may your name be kept holy. May your Kingdom come soon. May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. Give us today the food we need, and forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin against us. And don’t let us yield to temptation, but rescue us from the evil one.”