There are days when I’m up and days when I’m down. Sometimes there are days when I’m feeling so stretched all-over-the-place that all I want to do is crawl back into my nice, warm bed and melt away into my dreams ready to start the day anew. Today, was just one of those days!
I went to work trying my best to put on a brave face & keep it together, but my mind and body were not having it. I just couldn’t get my head into the game! Yeah, I know the saying, “MIND OVER MATTER,” but in this instance, my matter was dominating my mind.
A few short weeks ago I suffered an injury while getting out of the shower. Like many people who have a sense of humor, at the time of the slippage, I laughed it off thinking how clumsy of me.
What are the odds right!?!
As I finished drying off and proceeded to walk out of the room, I felt a slight pain in my leg and foot. I tried wiggling my toes around and right away noticed shots of pain creeping up my leg. Figuring I likely broke a toe (since I’ve broken so many in the past #PoorLittleToesies), I splinted it, took some pain meds, and went about my merry way.
It wasn’t until the next day that I began to feel more side effects from my fall. Unfortunately, it was after a long day of prancing around in my favorite, new thigh high boots, that I felt excruciating pain in my knee, leg and foot. Right away, I went to the hospital!
Ok, I’m lying…
Embracing the sometimes-stubborn-Libra in me, I took more pain meds, picked out my cute outfit for the next work day, and took a shower so that I could get ready for bed.
Not even five minutes had went by and I was already crying out in pain for my mama like a baby needing their boo-boo kissed.
Hey, it gets like that sometimes, don’t judge me!
I quickly finished my shower (no need to waste that good hot water), dried off, got dressed and finally drove myself to the hospital.
Not long after arriving, I was whisked back to an exam room and shipped off to Radiology to take a ton of annoyingly, painful and uncomfortable X-ray photos.
Sidebar: I will never understand the point in causing the patient more pain by having them pose to take pictures. Haven’t they heard of a selfie!?!
When I finished modeling off my leg, I was taken back to my room where the doctor was waiting for me. Upon hearing my diagnosis of a sprained knee, severe tendinitis and a contusion, I was pumped with pain meds (exaggerating a bit) and placed on crutches and a leg brace that felt like modern-day, medieval armor. As if that wasn’t embarrassing enough, he was referring me to see an orthopedist!..
Now hold the foam Doc!
I may be in my late 20’s, but that doesn’t mean I’m ready to see my grandmother’s doctor just yet (kidding of course, but you get the picture).
Needless to say, I wasn’t feeling the idea of going to orthopedics, but I made an appointment anyways. I figured it was either that or stay in pain, on crutches and away from my beloved high heels forever. #NotISaidTheCat
Fast forward to today and I’m still dealing with a lot of pain and complications from that “not-so-simple” slip and fall. Add that to all the other stressful facets of my life, and you’d understand why I’d rather escape to my Never-Never Land of Dreams!
I say all that to say, it’s times like these when I’m reminded that there’s a reason why my faith is being tested. Having been through so much already in the last two and half years, I know that I have to trust whatever God is trying to do in my life and take heed the lesson He wants me to learn. My Godmother once told me, “God has a way of sitting you down if he thinks you’re moving too fast or not listening to him.”
I didn’t think she meant literally.
Though I may not fully understand why so many “bad things” have happened to me, I know that everything happens for a reason. I’ve learned that the more I trust in God’s plan, stay focused on the things that I can control and not worry about anything, all things will eventually work themselves out for my good (even when my anxiety tells me otherwise).